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t of nursery food and strict routine could rewrite。 she didn’t want to see it； she tried not to see it for a long time； but in the end she realized。 the twins were odd； there were no two ways about it。 they were strange all through； right into their very hearts。
the way they talked； for instance。 she would see them through the kitchen window； a blurred pair of forms whose mouths appeared to be moving nineteen to the dozen。 as they approached the house； she caught fragments of the buzz of speech。 and then they came in。 silent。 “speak up！” she was always telling them。 but she was going deaf and they were shy； their chat was for themselves； not for others。 “don’t be silly；” she told dig when he told her the girls couldn’t speak properly。 “there’s no stopping them； when they get going。”
the realization came to her one day in winter。 for once both girls were indoors； adeline had been induced by emmeline to stay in the warmth； by the fire； out of the rain。 ordinarily the missus lived in a blur of fog； on this day she was blessed by an unexpected clearing in her vision； a new sharpness of hearing； and as she passed the door of the drawing room she caught a fragment of their noise and stopped。 sounds flew backward and forward between them； like tennis balls in some game； sounds that made them smile or laugh or send each other malicious glances。 their voices rose in squeals and swooped down in whispers。 from any distance you’d have thought it the lively； free…flowing chatter of ordinary children。 but her heart sank。 it was no language she had ever heard。 not english； and not the french that she had got used to when george’s mathilde was alive and that charlie still used with isabelle。 john was right。 they didn’t talk properly。
the shock of understanding froze her there in the doorway。 and as sometimes happens； one illumination opened the door to another。 the clock on the mantelpiece chimed and； as always； the mechanism under glass sent a little bird out of a cage to flap a mechanical circuit before reentering the cage on the other side。 as soon as the girls heard the first chime； they looked up at the clock。 two pairs of wide green eyes watched； unblinking； as the bird labored around the inside of the bell； wings up； wings down； wings up； wings down。
there was nothing particularly cold； particularly inhuman about their gaze。 it was just the way children look at inanimate moving objects。 but it froze the missus to the core。 for it was exactly the same as the way they looked at her； when she scolded； chided or exhorted。
they don’t realize that i am alive； she thought。 they don’t know that anyone is alive but themselves。
it is a tribute to her goodness that she didn’t find them monstrous。 instead； she felt sorry for them。
how lonely they must be。 how very lonely。
and she turned from the doorway and shuffled away。
from that day on the missus revised her expectations。 regular mealtimes and bathtimes； church on sunday； two nice； normal children—all these dreams went out of the window。 she had just one job now。 to keep the girls safe。
turning it over in her head； she thought she understood why it was。 twins； always together； always two。 if it was normal in their world to be two； what would other people； who came not in twos but ones； seem like to them？ we must seem like halves； the missus mused。 and she remembered a word； a strange word it had seemed at the time； that meant people who had lost parts of themselves。 amputees。 that’s what we are to them。 amputees。
normal？ no。 the girls were not and would never be normal。 but； she reassured herself； things being as they were； the twins being twins； perhaps their strangeness was only natural。
of course all amputees hanker after the state of twinness。 ordinary people； untwins； seek their soul mate； take lovers； marry。 tormented by their inpleteness they strive to be part of a pair。 the missus was no different from anyone else in this respect。 and she had her other half： john…the…dig。
they were not a couple in the traditional sense。 they were not married； they were not even lovers。 a dozen or fifteen years older than he； she was not old enough to be his mother； quite； but was older than he would have expected for a wife。 at the time they met； she was of an age when she no longer expected to marry anyone。 while he； a man in his prime； expected to marry； but somehow never did。 besides； once he was working with the missus； drinking tea with her every morning and sitting at the kitchen table to eat her food every evening； he fell out of the habit of seeking the pany of young women。 with a bit more imagination they might have been able to leap the bounds of their own expectations； they might have recognized their feelings for what they were： love of the deepest and most respectful kind。 in another day； another culture； he might have asked her to be his wife and she might have said yes。 at the very least； one can imagine that some friday night after their fish and mash； after their fruit pie and custard； he might have taken her hand—or she his—and they might have led each other in bashful silence to one or other of their beds。 but the thought never entered their heads。 so they became friends； the way old married couples often do； and enjoyed the tender loyalty that awaits the lucky on the other side of passion； without ever living the passion itself。
his name was john…the…dig； john digence to those who didn’t know him。 never a great one for writing； once the school years were past （and they were soon past； for there were not many of them）； he took to leaving off the last letters of his surname to save time。 the first three letters seemed more than adequate： did they not say who he was； what he did； more succinctly； more accurately； even； than his full name？ and so he used to sign himself john dig； and to the children he became john…the…dig。
he was a colorful man。 blue eyes like pieces of blue glass with the sun behind。 white hair that grew straight up on top of his head； like plants reaching for the sun。 and cheeks that went bright pink with exertion when he was digging。 no one could dig like him。 he had a special way of gardening； with the phases of the moon： planting when the moon was waxing； measuring time by its cycles。 in the evening； he pored over tables of figures； calculating the best time for everything。 his great…grandfather gardened like that； and his grandfather and his father。 they maintained the knowledge。
john…the…dig’s family had always been gardeners at angelfield。 in the old days； when the house had a head gardener and seven hands； his great…grandfather had rooted out a box hedge under a window and； so as not to be wasteful； he’d taken hundreds of cuttings a few inches long。 he grew them on in a nursery bed； and when they reached ten inches； he planted them in the garden。 he clipped some into low； sharp…edged hedges； let others grow shaggy； and when they were broad enough； took his shears to them and made spheres。 some； he could see； wanted to be pyramids； cones； top hats。 to shape his green material； this man with the large； rough hands learned the patient； meticulous delicacy of a lacemaker。 he created no animals； no hu