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couldnt have thought about that； because no one knew enough about other worlds when he started。。。 all that；〃 she said wonderingly； 〃all that bravery and skill。。。 all that； all wasted！ all for nothing！〃
they climbed on； finding the going easy on the rock road； and when they reached the top of the ridge； they stopped and looked back。
〃will；〃 she said； 〃supposing we dont find them？〃
〃im sure we will。 what im wondering is what my daemon will be like。〃
〃you saw her。 and i picked her up；〃 lyra said； blushing； because of course it was a gross violation of manners to touch something so private as someone elses daemon。 it was forbidden not only by politeness； but by something deeper than that； something like shame。 a quick glance at wills warm cheeks showed that he knew that just as well as she did。
they walked on side by side； suddenly shy with each other。 but will； not put off by being shy； said； 〃when does your daemon stop changing shape？〃
〃about。。。 i suppose about our age； or a bit older。 maybe more sometimes。 we used to talk about pan settling； him and me。 we used to wonder what hed be。。。”
〃dont people have any idea？〃
〃not when theyre young。 as you grow up you start thinking； well； they might be this or they might be that。。。 and usually they end up something that fits。 i mean something like your real nature。 like if your daemons a dog； that means you like doing what youre told； and knowing whos boss； and following orders； and pleasing people who are in charge。 a lot of servants are people whose daemons are dogs。 so it helps to know what youre like and to find what youd be good at。 how do people in your world know what theyre like？〃
〃i dont know。 i dont know much about my world。 all i know is keeping secret and quiet and hidden； so i dont know much about。。。 grownups； and friends。 or lovers。 i think itd be difficult having a daemon because everybody would know so much about you just by looking。 i like to keep secret and stay out of sight。〃
〃then maybe your daemond be an animal thats good at hiding。 or one of those animals that looks like another； a butterfly that looks like a wasp； for disguise。 they must have creatures like that in your world； because we have； and were so much alike。〃
they walked on together in a friendly silence。 all around them the wide； clear morning lay limpid in the hollows and pearly blue in the warm air above。 as far as the eye could see； the great savanna rolled； brown； gold； buff…green； shimmering toward the horizon； and empty。 they might have been the only people in the world。
〃but its not empty really；〃 lyra said。
〃you mean that man？〃
〃no。 you know what i mean。〃
〃yes； i do。 i can see shadows in the grass。。。 maybe birds；〃 will said。
he was following the little darting movements here and there。 he found it easier to see the shadows if he didnt look at them。 they were more willing to show themselves to the corners of his eye； and when he said so to lyra； she said； 〃its negative capability。〃
〃whats that？〃
〃the poet keats said it first。 dr。 malone knows。 its how i read the alethiometer。 its how you use the knife； isnt it？〃
〃yes； i suppose it is。 but i was just thinking that they might be the daemons。〃
〃so was i； but。。。〃
she put her finger to her lips。 he nodded。
〃look；〃 he said； 〃theres one of those fallen trees。〃
it was marys climbing tree。 they went up to it carefully； keeping an eye on the grove in case another one should fall。 in the calm morning； with only a faint breeze stirring the leaves； it seemed impossible that a mighty thing like this should ever topple； but here it was。
the vast trunk； supported in the grove by its torn…up roots and out on the grass by the mass of branches； was high above their heads。 some of those branches； crushed and broken； were themselves as big around as the biggest trees will had ever seen； the crown of the tree； tight…packed with boughs that still looked sturdy； leaves that were still green； towered like a ruined palace into the mild air。
suddenly lyra gripped wills arm。
〃shh；〃 she whispered。 〃dont look。 im sure theyre up there。 i saw something move and i swear it was pan。。。〃
her hand was warm。 he was more aware of that than of the great mass of leaves and branches above them。 pretending to gaze vacantly at the horizon； he let his attention wander upward into the confused mass of green； brown； and blue； and there； she was right！ ； there was a something that was not the tree。 and beside it； another。
〃walk away；〃 will said under his breath。 〃well go somewhere else and see if they follow us。〃
〃suppose they dont。。。 but yes； all right；〃 lyra whispered back。
they pretended to look all around； they set their hands on one of the branches resting on the ground； as if they were intending to climb； they pretended to change their minds； by shaking their heads and walking away。
〃i wish we could look behind；〃 lyra said when they were a few hundred yards away。
〃just go on walking。 they can see us； and they wont get lost。 theyll e to us when they want to。〃
they stepped off the black road and into the knee…high grass； swishing their legs through the stems； watching the insects hovering； darting； fluttering； skimming； hearing the million…voiced chorus chirrup and scrape。
〃what are you going to do； will？〃 lyra said quietly after theyd walked some way in silence。
〃well； ive got to go home；〃 he said。
she thought he sounded unsure； though。 she hoped he sounded unsure。
〃but they might still be after you；〃 she said。 〃those men。〃
〃weve seen worse than them； after all。〃
〃yes； i suppose。。。 but i wanted to show you jordan college； and the fens。 i wanted us to。。。〃
〃yeah；〃 he said； 〃and i wanted。。。 it would be good to go to cittagazze again； even。 it was a beautiful place； and if the specters are all gone。。。 but theres my mother。 ive got to go back and look after her。 i just left her with mrs。 cooper； and its not fair on either of them。〃
〃but its not fair on you to have to do that。〃
〃no；〃 he said； 〃but thats a different sort of not fair。 thats just like an earthquake or a rainstorm。 it might not be fair； but no ones to blame。 but if i just leave my mother with an old lady who isnt very well herself； then thats a different kind of not fair。 that would be wrong。 ive just got to go home。 but probably its going to be difficult to go back as we were。 probably the secrets out now。 i dont suppose mrs。 cooper will have been able to look after her； not if my mothers in one of those times when she gets frightened of things。 so shes probably had to get help； and when i go back； ill be made to go into some kind of institution。〃
〃no！ like an orphanage？〃
〃i think thats what they do。 i just dont know。 ill hate it。〃
〃you could escape with the knife； will！ you could e to my world！〃
〃i still belong there； where i can be with her。 when im grown up ill be able to look after her properly； in my own house。 no one can interfere then。〃
〃dyou think youll get married？〃
he was quiet for a long time。 she knew he was thinking； though。
〃i cant see that far ahead；〃 he said。 〃it would have to be someone who understands about。。。 i dont think theres any one like that in my world。