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this way is hard； but much truer。〃
〃and is it like the alethiometer？〃 said will。 〃does it take a whole lifetime to learn？〃
〃it takes long practice； yes。 you have to work。 did you think you could snap your fingers； and have it as a gift？ what is worth having is worth working for。 but you have a friend who has already taken the first steps； and who could help you。〃
will had no idea who that could be； and at that moment he wasnt in the mood to ask。
〃i see；〃 he said； sighing。 〃and will we see you again？ will we ever speak to an angel once we go back to our own worlds？〃
〃i dont know；〃 said xaphania。 〃but you should not spend your time waiting。〃
〃and i should break the knife；〃 said will。
〃yes。〃
while they had been speaking； the window had been open beside them。 the lights were glowing in the factory； the work was going on； machines were turning； chemicals were bining； people were producing goods and earning their livings。 that was the world where will belonged。
〃well； ill show you what to do；〃 he said。
so he taught the angel how to feel for the edges of the window； just as giao paradisi had shown him； sensing them at his fingers ends and pinching them together。 little by little the window closed； and the factory disappeared。
〃the openings that werent made by the subtle knife；〃 will said； 〃is it really necessary to close them all？ because surely dust only escapes through the openings the knife made。 the other ones must have been there for thousands of years； and still dust exists。〃
the angel said； 〃we shall close them all； because if you thought that any still remained； you would spend your life searching for one； and that would be a waste of the time you have。 you have other work than that to do； much more important and valuable； in your own world。 there will be no travel outside it anymore。〃
“what work have i got to do； then？〃 said will； hut went on at once； 〃no； on second thought； dont tell me。 i shall decide what i do。 if you say my work is fighting； or healing； or exploring； or whatever you might say； ill always he thinking about it。 and if i do end up doing that； ill be resentful because itll feel as if i didnt have a choice； and if i dont do it； ill feel guilty because i should。 whatever i do； i will choose it； no one else。〃
〃then you have already taken the first steps toward wisdom；〃 said xaphania。
〃theres a light out at sea；〃 said lyra。
〃that is the ship bringing your friends to take you home。 they will be here tomorrow。〃
the word tomorrow fell like a heavy blow。 lyra had never thought she would be reluctant to see farder coram； and john faa； and serafina pekkala。
〃i shall go now；〃 said the angel。 〃i have learned what i needed to know。〃
she embraced each of them in her light； cool arms and kissed their foreheads。 then she bent to kiss the daemons； and they became birds and flew up with her as she spread her wings and rose swiftly into the air。 only a few seconds later she had vanished。
a few moments after she had gone； lyra gave a little gasp。
〃what is it？〃 said will。
〃i never asked her about my father and mother； and i cant ask the alethiometer； either； now。。。 i wonder if ill ever know？〃
she sat down slowly； and he sat down beside her。
〃oh； will；〃 she said； 〃what can we do？ whatever can we do？ i want to live with you forever。 i want to kiss you and lie down with you and wake up with you every day of my life till i die； years and years and years away。 i dont want a memory； just a memory。。。 〃
〃no；〃 he said； 〃memorys a poor thing to have。 its your own real hair and mouth and arms and eyes and hands i want。 i didnt know i could ever love anything so much。 oh； lyra； i wish this night would never end！ if only we could stay here like this； and the world could stop turning； and everyone else could fall into a sleep。。。〃
〃everyone except us！ and you and i could live here forever and just love each other。〃
〃i will love you forever； whatever happens。 till i die and after i die； and when i find my way out of the land of the dead； ill drift about forever； all my atoms； till i find you again。。。〃
〃ill be looking for you； will； every moment； every single moment。 and when we do find each other again； well cling together so tight that nothing and no onell ever tear us apart。 every atom of me and every atom of you。。 。well live in birds and flowers and dragonflies and pine trees and in clouds and in those little specks of light you see floating in sunbeams。。。 and when they use our atoms to make new lives； they wont just be able to take one； theyll have to take two； one of you and one of me； well be joined so tight。。。〃
they lay side by side； hand in hand； looking at the sky。
〃do you remember；〃 she whispered； 〃when you first came into that cafe in cittagazze； and youd never seen a daemon？〃
〃i couldnt understand what he was。 but when i saw you； i liked you straightaway because you were brave。〃
〃no； i liked you first。〃
〃you didnt！ you fought me！〃
〃well；〃 she said； 〃yes。 but you attacked me。〃
〃i did not！ you came charging out and attacked me。〃
〃yes； but i soon stopped。〃
〃yes； but；〃 he mocked softly。
he felt her tremble； and then under his hands the delicate bones of her back began to rise and fall； and he heard her sob quietly。 he stroked her warm hair； her tender shoulders； and then he kissed her face again and again； and presently she gave a deep； shuddering sigh and fell still。
the daemons flew back down now； and changed again； and came toward them over the soft sand。 lyra sat up to greet them； and will marveled at the way he could instantly tell which daemon was which； never mind what form they had。 pantalaimon was now an animal whose name he couldnt quite find： like a large and powerful ferret； red…gold in color； lithe and sinuous and full of grace。 kirjava was a cat again。 but she was a cat of no ordinary size； and her fur was lustrous and rich； with a thousand different glints and shades of ink black； shadow gray； the blue of a deep lake under a noon sky； mist…lavender…moonlight…fog。。。 to see the meaning of the word subtlety； you had only to look at her fur。
〃a marten；〃 he said； finding the name for pantalaimon； 〃a pine marten。〃
〃pan；〃 lyra said as he flowed up onto her lap； 〃youre not going to change a lot anymore； are you？〃
〃no；〃 he said。
〃its funny；〃 she said； 〃you remember when we were younger and i didnt want you to stop changing at all。。。well； i wouldnt mind so much now。 not if you stay like this。〃
will put his hand on hers。 a new mood had taken hold of him； and he felt resolute and peaceful。 knowing exactly what he was doing and exactly what it would mean； he moved his hand from lyras wrist and stroked the red…gold fur of her daemon。
lyra gasped。 but her surprise was mixed with a pleasure so like the joy that flooded through her when she had put the fruit to his lips that she couldnt protest； because she was breathless。 with a racing heart she responded in the same way： she put her hand on the silky warmth of wills daemon； and as her fingers tightened in the fur； she knew that will was feeling exactly what she was。
and she knew； too； that neither daemon would change now； having felt a lovers hands on th