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痵 known all along this road； of course。 i pulled up。 it’s only mr weaver； who keeps the village general shop。 no； he doesn’t want to insure his life； nor his shop either。 he’s merely run out of change and wants to know whether i’ve got a quid’s worth of ‘large silver’。 they never have any change in nettlefield； not even at the pub。
i drove on。 the wheat would have been as tall as your waist。 it went undulating up and down the hills like a great green carpet； with the wind rippling it a little； kind of thick and silky… looking。 it’s like a woman； i thought。 it makes you want to lie on it。 and a bit ahead of me i saw the sign…post where the road forks right for pudley and left for oxford。
i was still on my usual beat； inside the boundary of my own ‘district’； as the firm calls it。 the natural thing； as i was going westward； would have been to leave london along the uxbridge road。 but by a kind of instinct i’d followed my usual route。 the fact was i was feeling guilty about the whole business。 i wanted to get well away before i headed for oxfordshire。 and in spite of the fact that i’d fixed things so neatly with hilda and the firm； in spite of the twelve quid in my pocket…book and the suitcase in the back of the car； as i got nearer the crossroads i actually felt a temptation—i knew i wasn’t going to succumb to it； and yet it was a temptation—to chuck the whole thing up。 i had a sort of feeling that so long as i was driving along my normal beat i was still inside the law。 it’s not too late； i thought。 there’s still time to do the respectable thing。 i could run into pudley； for instance； see the manager of barclay’s bank （he’s our agent at pudley） and find out if any new business had e in。 for that matter i could even turn round； go back to hilda； and make a clean breast of the plot。
i slowed down as i got to the corner。 should i or shouldn’t i？ for about a second i was really tempted。 but no！ i tooted the klaxon and swung the car westward； on to the oxford road。
well； i’d done it。 i was on the forbidden ground。 it was true that five miles farther on； if i wanted to； i could turn to the left again and get back to westerham。 but for the moment i was headed westward。 strictly speaking i was in flight。 and what was curious； i was no sooner on the oxford road than i felt perfectly certain that they knew all about it。 when i say they i mean all the people who wouldn’t approve of a trip of this kind and who’d have stopped me if they could—which； i suppose； would include pretty well everybody。
what was more； i actually had a feeling that they were after me already。 the whole lot of them！ all the people who couldn’t understand why a middle…aged man with false teeth should sneak away for a quiet week in the place where he spent his boyhood。 and all the mean…minded bastards who could understand only too well； and who’d raise heaven and earth to prevent it。 they were all on my track。 it was as if a huge army were streaming up the road behind me。 i seemed to see them in my mind’s eye。 hilda was in front； of course； with the kids tagging after her； and mrs wheeler driving her forward with a grim； vindictive expression； and miss minns rushing along in the rear； with her pince…nez slipping down and a look of distress on her face； like the hen that gets left behind when the others have got hold of the bacon rind。 and sir herbert crum and the higher…ups of the flying salamander in their rolls… royces and hispano…suizas。 and all the chaps at the office； and all the poor down…trodden pen…pushers from ellesmere road and from all such other roads； some of them wheeling prams and mowing… machines and concrete garden…rollers； some of them chugging along in little austin sevens。 and all the soul…savers and nosey parkers； the people whom you’ve never seen but who rule your destiny all the same； the home secretary； scotland yard； the temperance league； the bank of england； lord beaverbrook； hitler and stalin on a tandem bicycle； the bench of bishops； mussolini； the pope—they were all of them after me。 i could almost hear them shouting：
‘there’s a chap who thinks he’s going to escape！ there’s a chap who says he won’t be streamlined！ he’s going back to lower binfield！ after him！ stop him！’
it’s queer。 the impression was so strong that i actually took a peep through the little window at the back of the car to make sure i wasn’t being followed。 guilty conscience； i suppose。 but there was nobody。 only the dusty white road and the long line of the elms dwindling out behind me。
i trod on the gas and the old car rattled into the thirties。 a few minutes later i was past the westerham turning。 so that was that。 i’d burnt my boats。 this was the idea which； in a dim sort of way； had begun to form itself in my mind the day i got my new false teeth。
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PART Ⅳ…1
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i came towards lower binfield over chamford hill。 there are four roads into lower binfield； and it would have been more direct to go through walton。 but i’d wanted to e over chamford hill； the way we used to go when we biked home from fishing in the thames。 when you get just past the crown of the hill the trees open out and you can see lower binfield lying in the valley below you。
it’s a queer experience to go over a bit of country you haven’t seen in twenty years。 you remember it in great detail； and you remember it all wrong。 all the distances are different； and the landmarks seem to have moved about。 you keep feeling； surely this hill used to be a lot steeper—surely that turning was on the other side of the road？ and on the other hand you’ll have memories which are perfectly accurate； but which only belong to one particular occasion。 you’ll remember； for instance； a corner of a field； on a wet day in winter； with the grass so green that it’s almost blue； and a rotten gatepost covered with lichen and a cow standing in the grass and looking at you。 and you’ll go back after twenty years and be surprised because the cow isn’t standing in the same place and looking at you with the same expression。
as i drove up chamford hill i realized that the picture i’d had of it in my mind was almost entirely imaginary。 but it was a fact that certain things had changed。 the road was tarmac； whereas in the old days it used to be macadam （i remember the bumpy feeling of it under the bike）； and it seemed to have got a lot wider。 and there were far less trees。 in the old days there used to be huge beeches growing in the hedgerows； and in places their boughs met across the road and made a kind of arch。 now they were all gone。 i’d nearly got to the top of the hill when i came on something which was certainly new。 to the right of the road there was a whole lot of fake…picturesque houses； with overhanging eaves and rose pergolas and what…not。 you know the kind of houses that are just a little too high…class to stand in a row； and so they’re dotted about in a kind of colony； with private roads leading up to them。 and at the entrance to one of the private roads there was a huge white board which said：
the kennels
pedigree sealyham pups
dogs boarded
surely that usen’t to be there？
i thought for a moment。 yes； i remembered！ whe